Daily EpiDose

Holidays are over.. results in..

not too bad i think, 3rd in my class by a average margin of 2.25 points. this semester with 2 extra subjects.. I WILL WORK MY ASS OFF!! jeez, i sound nerdy.

Semester 2 classes have just started last week, and all I could think of was… crap.. for the next four months all my classes are at 8am. dohh.. so waking up at 6-6.30am should be normal, or rather… a MUST.

So definitely, working til 12-12.30am is not very healthy. i was so tired the first week back at college. but could it also be due to the fact that I had been pigging out during my holidays? hopefully i just need time to get used to hectivity again.

work is…… bearable. the people there are really really nice. its actually the first time i can say, i like 99% of the people there. the b(ig)itch there is of course, the boss. The one who’d rather give a slice of lemon to the toilet than have you put it in your drink. the one who throws away good, fresh food EVERY night, rather than give it to her already overworked and underpaid staff. the one who knows you by your mistakes rather than your name (she likes calling ppl EH), the one who discourages personal motivation of the staff to better the company’s service and rather us remain mediocre just coz she says so. the one who talks everyone down everytime unless she wants something from you for free.

other than that, i’m really happy at my college. my classmates are great happy people, the subjects are loads of fun… i’m learning french, something i’ve always wanted to speak (its damn sexy doncha think?), we’re having a food carnival this week, busybusybusy. and prom’s coming up!

definitely looking forward to shopping around for a beeyewtiful dressie. yay. i actually look forward to dressing up coz most of my classes require me to have tiedup hair, short nails, no makeup, no dyed hair, uniform, safety shoes. i feel so…. manly most of the time. lol.

even my mates go,"hey man, loads of hot chicks this new semester huh?" *GAG*

i need to be a lil more girly. but then, that sometimes gets in the way of getting things done. even at work, they treat me like one of the guys, most of the time.

my question is this, how do you remain girly without having to compromise your performance?

i mean, seriously, the food industry is really a man’s world, and you need to be able to move fast, stand high heat, use brute strength, lug stuff around, and it all has to be fast, great and delicious. am i crapping now? so no time can be wasted in being… "si man", giggly, etcetc.

i miss the days in TOA, when i was an XS in MNG, an all i did was shop, preen, parade and club. ah, but those days were just me being an unproductive lazy lob. but, its pretty fun though. hmmmmmmmm….

for me to do that, i need to….. quit my job?? lol. i would love to, so i can come back on the map. i have no life now, just get up, go to college, then back home, nap, bathe, work, sleep. yeah yeah, i complain a lot, i know.. hehe…

im trying to take this as future training for when i join a hotel, when i have my own business - where hours at work will be endless and sleep will be more precious than the dollars i earn. i’m trying to cultivate this ongoing, fiery gungho attitude so that when its time to work, i’ll be properly rared up and ready to go.

randomly, i really wanna get outta my skin for awhile. i’m enjoying where i am right now, but i’d also like to be a different person with different priorities. escapism tempts me…. wheeeee….. why cant we ever be satisfied??

i feel i’m on the brink of something big…. a change maybe, a defining moment in my life perhaps, a big move coming up, or a life-altering decision… i don’ know.. its just somewhere in my guts…. somethings bubbling and will boil over….

feels good, feels exciting…. i’m really psyched!

will update soon…. let’s hope this gut feelings real… and not just constipation…..